Kau Kawanku

Kau sahabat aku dunia dan akhirat

Sentiasa ada bersama denganku

Saat susah dan senang.

Mungkin dengan yang lain kau agak 'kasar',

Tapi bila denganku kau selalu menyerah.

Hampir setiap hari bersama

Berkongsi cerita, suka duka

Melalui liku-liku menuju dewasa

Mengejar cita-cita besar dalam dada

Belajar erti hidup serta rasa.

Namun, 

Aku mulai rasa sesuatu.

Kau bukan mahu sekadar kawan

Kau mengharapkan lebih dari kawan.

Maaf,

Memang aku sayangkan kau

Memang aku suka bersama kau

Tapi perasaan aku tiada untuk kau

Aku tidak anggap kau lebih dari sahabat.

Sejak kecil kita berkawan

Sampai sekarang 

Atau hingga ke puncak awan

Kita akan tetap jadi kawan

Hingga akhir hayat badan.

Kau Sempurna

Kau kata rambut kau 'messy'

Tak mengapa, aku sukakannya.

Kau kata badan kau mulai gemuk

Tak mengapa, aku rasa ia normal.

Kau kata baju kau nampak besar

Tak mengapa, ia masih sempurna.

Kau kata suara kau tak sedap

Tak mengapa, aku suka mendengarnya.

Aku sukakan setiap apa yang kau punya

Aku tak pernah merungut

Aku bersyukur seadanya.

Kini aku merindukannya

Setiap satu darinya

Segala yang kau punya

Dalam sedar atau tidak

Kau sempurna.

Maaf, Saya Tersilap

Maaf,

Saya salah orang rupanya.

Saya fikir, awaklah orang tu,

Tapi saya silap.

Saya salah orang lagi.

Tak sangka,

Saya bayangkan macam-macam dengan awak.

Ceria, bahagia, hidup bersama, harmoni tanpa duka.

Tapi, awak bukan orangnya.

Tidak mengapalah,

Mungkin sampai di sini saja.

Maafkan saya kerana mengganggu

Maafkan saya, sering menunggu

Maafkan saya, menyusahkan selalu.

Ingat pesan terakhir ini,

Berbahagialah, jangan ada duka

Sihatlah, jangan pernah luka

Senyumlah, jangan kata dusta

Jikalau rindu, datanglah,

Pintu itu tak pernah tak buka.

The senses

I could sense everything that He allows me to feel, especially when it comes to people.

People are subjective.

They're not the same to one and another. They've multiple feelings at certain time and that couldn't be realized by everyone, sometimes.

But, i do realize it. 

Thank God, this is a gift from Allah swt. He allows me to feel what others' think about me, what mood they're in, what kind of feelings they feel, and whatever conditions they're in, i could sense it.

I'm an observer. I could know when someone doesn't like me. I could know when someone cares about me. I could sense their feelings towards me or even towards another people. I could sense their intentions whether it is good or not. And i'm very grateful for this gift.

Alhamdulillah.

With this ability, i could know who is the good, or even the evil. Yes, not all of the time, but this ability works when i need it.

That's why i would love to further my studies in psychology. I love to learn about people. I like to know the human's psychology, how they think, how they could resist something that they don't like or even how human could absorb another human's feeling. 

It's awesome !

I admit that it hurts to face the reality when you could sense how people thinkabout yourself, but that reality is better for you. You won't be lied by the liars easily and you can trace it before they do.

Play safe, dude. Don't ignore your gut's feeling. Be alert.

"What if.."

Some says,

"If you miss him and you wanna talk to him, just make some conversation with him. Do not torture yourself. Just talk to him, send him a message, ask him whether he's okay or what he's doing. Ask him, so that you'll feel better."

But, i'm scared i'll annoy him. 

What if he doesn't like my message ?

What if i'm disturbing him with that conversation ?

What if he doesn't give a damn about it ?

What if the blue ticks are there, but i got no reply ?

What if, what if, what if..